When your parents nag you for having no job is when you really need to reflect. I know I am a good daughter. I contributed a lot to the family. I brought us up to where we are now and gave the family a good life that we have now. But one thing I need to reflect on is that being a good daughter doesn’t stop there. It must be done continuously. It doesn’t mean I have to be responsible for all of them, but at least I shouldn’t stop contributing especially that I am living with them now, or in my case, with my mother.
I don’t know if I am just being paranoid but I feel like my mother is indirectly nagging me. She is kind of giving me a cold treatment. I failed to pay some bills this month, including my Internet bill. I had to ask her to help me out with it and I do feel sad about it. It isn’t like me, asking help. I know I have been a very irresponsible person lately for prioritizing a game than a work. I neglected my job and because of it, I ended up unproductive. I do earn but it is only to pay for a game. I am sick, I know! So I understand why my mother is giving me a cold treatment lately but it is just a month of failure, a month of play. Just this month. I just wanted to have fun for a month at least, give in to what I want and give myself some time to forget the heartaches that I went through. I hope she’ll understand and I do hope I’ll be able to come back to what I used to enjoy doing – writing and earning.